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Tears of Past

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How do you forget someone you loved with all your heart?



Sometimes I wonder if he misses me as much as I do, the scarlet haired woman thought. She lied on her bed, staring aimlessly at the ceiling, waiting for sleep to overcome her. Unfortunately, she could never find rest.

It was a normal, unhealthy routine in which she grew well accustomed to. Ever since the day she had last seen him, Kori Anders was not able to sleep peacefully. Her emerald eyes appeared lifeless and dull in the shining moonlight that spilled through her bedroom window. This was her true form, her true face. No one had ever seen this depressing face on the lovely girl's complexion. She was always seen with a smile, positive attitude, and energetic. No one would ever suspect such a happy girl with a miserable past.

With her long, slender fingers, she raked her red fringes towards the crown of her head. She felt the shorter hairs slap back to her forehead while the longer ones remained in place. The young woman was frustrated, sleep-deprived, depressed, but strong-willed. Sometimes she even wondered as to what fueled her strength. The answer is her past.

It was ages ago when she had come across someone amazing, someone she had no idea would transform her life forever.

Kori sighed despondently as her mind traveled to her past as usual.

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~Flash back~

It was like any ordinary school day in Jump City Middle School. 6th grade signified the end of her childhood and into her early preteen years. She was excited, but she expected nothing less than any typical school day.

As she entered class, she had noticed that Mrs. Rouge had transformed the seating arrangements. The desks were set up as rows, but now they were several rectangular tables about the room. Each rectangle had six desks in which students faced each other.

Kori sighed sadly. She had wished that Mrs. Rouge didn't change their seats. The last seating arrangement allowed her to sit next to her best friend, Barbara Gordon.

Barbara and she has been friends for the past two years because of their similar appearance with long, luscious red hair. The only differences were their eyes and skin color. Barbara had porcelain skin and blue eyes while Kori had an orange, tan skin and green eyes.

The two had gotten along, especially during recess. The duo was the best hand ball playing team. They always shared secrets with one another. Even their most embarrassing secrets were considered like any ordinary typical bad luck moments. They were the best of friends, even to the point that they considered each other as sisters. Their friendship had been unbreakable to some extent.

Upon seeing the new seats before them, the duo exchanged saddening smiles as they carried their belongings to their new seat.

Kori sat in the middle of two boys: Richard Grayson on her left and Victor Stone on her right. In front of her sat Jennifer Clevely. In front of Richard sat Garfield Logan. Victor sat across from Wally West.

Misfit could not even describe their table. There was constant chaos from copying someone's answers to lashing out in a heated verbal argument to breaking out in a random outburst of jokes. Although the table was very troublesome, Mrs. Rouge had decided to keep the table together as to make it fair with the other students.

Garfield Logan is a boy with cream colored skin, blue eyes and blonde hair. He has the title of the class clown. He constantly made a joke of something, whether it was funny or not. There were some pretty rare times that he had the class crack up from something hilarious, but majority of the time he'd end up laughing at his own silly joke.

Jennifer Clevely is a girl with pale, gray skin and unusual pink hair and eyes. As her nickname implies, Jinx is someone who can make a person's life very unlucky in a heartbeat. She's usually considered a lone wolf, yet she was always seen with two other guys. Manny Lewis, also known as Mammoth, was one of them. He is a big, bulky boy with peach skin, brown hair, and gray eyes. Another was Gerry Glen, also known as Gizmo. He had peach skin, grey eyes and bald, but despite that he was the class genius when it came to technology.

Wally West had a strange habit of fusing Jinx's bomb. The boy had cream colored skin, blue eyes, and red hair, despite his strange personality, the boy was a total heartthrob to every girl in school. Everyone in class find it very peculiar as to why he constantly annoyed the bewitched girl. But Wally would just reply with the same answer, "She's cute when she's mad."

Victor Stone was Kori's childhood best friend, going back to their toddler years. He has rich chocolate skin tone, grey eyes, tall, and very athletic. He is possibly the only person who could match up to Gizmo's extraordinary gift. Like the small boy, he was also bald and a technology prodigy, which earned his nickname, Cyborg.

Richard Grayson was the rich boy in class, although he doesn't brag about his status. He had porcelain skin, a pair of cerulean eyes, and jet black, spiky hair. He was not one to talk, let alone get involved in anything. He was always quiet, lost in thought. Leaving him unnoticed in class majority of the time. But in recess, the boy was energetic and daring. It was hard to believe that he was the same person in class! The boy was also musically gifted and quite intelligent.

It was not until this moment did Kori acknowledge his presence. At times, Kori was usually caught up talking to Victor about their pasts. But majority of the time, she would be giggling as Garfield and Victor engage into a silly argument. Wally and Jinx, on the other hand, would always be in a heated verbal argument that revolved around Wally's death wish. This left her and Richard uninvolved. During those times, Kori would be doing her homework since she could not converse with Barbara, who sat on the opposite side of the room.

Nudge. Someone had pulled her out of her concentration. Kori's head turned to the dark haired boy on her left. His handsome appearance had captivated Kori's attention. At that moment, Kori had a crush on him.

"Yes?" she asked.

"Can you help me with math?" the boy asked shyly.

"Sure."

The two seatmates began to converse over their lesson until Richard had finally grasped the concept. With a thank you from the boy, Kori returned to her work. Once she had finally finished with ten minutes to spare, she began to doodle random images on the top of her homework.

She heard a sharp intake of breath to her left and glanced at the boy with curiosity.

"No way! You love Teen Titans too?" he sputtered.

At an instance, the girl's emerald eyes glowed excitedly. "Yes! I love the show so much! It's the best cartoon series I've seen in all my life!"

"Me too! I didn't expect anyone to know about the shower since majority of the watchers would consider it as any ordinary super hero show. Like the Justice League," Richard replied.

"But Justice League was great! The show was interesting! Teen Titans just made the show more interesting because they're teenagers and they have more of a drama included in them!"

"I agree. There's more flavor to the series, and it makes it kinda interesting that the citizens entrusts these teenagers with their lives!"

"Oh, but I believe they can handle themselves. I mean they have a mature leader," Kori smiled.

"Yeah. Robin's my favorite character! I wish I could be just as smart and brave like him. How about you?" Richard asked.

"I'd have to say Starfire. We have a lot of things in common," Kori answered.

"Don't they have a special relationship of some sort?" Richard pointed out.

At an instant both students face flushed red and their gazes dropped to their desks.

"Uh, I believe so," Kori stuttered one she had gained her composure. "They are suitable for one another. They're obviously more than best friends, although Robin denies it," she sighed.

"Yeah, Robin needs to muster some courage and ask her out," Richard agreed wholeheartedly.

The conversation alone had planted a new friendship, not to mention, love. The bond grew exponentially each day. Richard's shy personality had slowly vanished, leaving behind a mysterious, daring and mischievous boy.

To Kori, he had become the most annoying person in the classroom with his constant need of assistance. Whether it be by catching up to math or finding subjects for the next literature essay to stealing each other's backpacks before the end of the day. Nevertheless, she had enjoyed every single moment. His nuisance was a normal routine in her middle school life. There was not one day when Richard Grayson had not teased her.

It was not long before their playful actions began to give off an aura of intimacy. Victor had been the first to ask about their relationship then others began to ask.


~End Flashback~


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Starfire and Robin, huh?

A tear slipped down Kori's eye. If ever she could return to the past, she wished that she and Richard could have been more than just friends. Instead she'd look at him and reply with the same answer to everyone's question: No, we're just best friends.

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~Flashback~

"Are you sure there's nothing going on between you and Richard?" Barbara asked the millionth time that day.

"Yes, Babs! I'm absolutely positive that Dick and I don't have anything with each other." Not that he's shown me.

"I'm glad…"

Kori stared at her best friend with surprised etched all over her features.

"Well um, to tell you the truth, I'm in love with Richard," Barbara blushed.

"H-how long have you been in love with him?" Kori stuttered.

"Since second grade. We're like childhood best friends, but lately we haven't talked to each other."

"How come?"

"Well, we don't really have anything to talk about lately," Barbara answered honestly, "we see each other time to time and catch up during those times rather than in school."

Kori felt her heart sink. Of all the people to like him, it had to be her best friend. Why couldn't it be anyone else?!

At that moment, Kori felt crestfallen. She couldn't tell her best friend that she had feelings for the boy too; she knew that it would ruin their friendship. That was the last thing she ever wanted to happen. To Kori, Barbara had known him the longest, which meant that she had no chance to be with him. It became clear to her of what she must do. She had to help her two best friends get together. It's what a friend would do, right? I will help and support my two best friends, she thought.

"I see. I will help you then," Kori smiled.

~End Flashback~


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The mask was born that day. Despite the pain she carried in her heart, she still smiled. Her tears were always saved for bed. She needed to release tears every night just to lighten the burden and continue her moral support.

She had wanted no drama. It was the last thing Kori had hoped to happen. She loved her friends with all her heart and to her, friendship always came first. Their desires came before hers, especially their happiness.

Kori had always gave, not take. She considered others. She had wished for happiness for everyone. By doing this, it would make her a great friend. She would also feel good about her actions. Looking back now, ironically it didn't.

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~Flashback~

"Kori! Stay after school with me alright?" Barbara announced as she bounded to her best friend.

It had been about a year since the duo had now transformed into a trio. Everyone had known them for their astounding talents, intelligence, and skills in the handball court, but most of all, their powerful friendship.

"Okay, Babs," Kori replied, "what's this about?"

"I'm going to confront Dick about his feelings towards me," she replied excitedly. "But I'm scared he'll reject me!"

Kori had already mastered her fake smiles to the point that they were real ones. "Don't worry, Babs, I know he'll return your feelings!" Kori cheered. "'Sides if he doesn't I'll knock a thing or two in him for not seeing how attractive you are!"

Barbara pulled Kori into a tight hug. "Thank you so much, Kori. You don't know how much this means to me."

"I know," Kori responded blankly. Kori couldn't return the hug to her, but Barbara didn't notice as she quickly pulled away.

"I'll see you later!" and she was gone.

Kori glanced at the ground then at the handball court that held so much memories of the ruling trio. Everything's going to change, I just know it, she thought sadly.

She walked over to the wall and leaned on it. I'm going to confront Dick about his feelings towards me… Barbara's words echoed in the wind.

Kori felt her legs give and she slid down to the floor, hugging herself. No… I don't want you to take him away from me, she sobbed. Please don't take away someone who means so much to me. Her breathing increased as she sucked in more air. Her body shook uncontrollably as tears slid down her face.

Kori, stop! she snapped at herself. You're supposed to be happy for them, not cry at your own expenses! Stop being so selfish! I thought it was always friends first? At an instant, Kori wiped her tears away furiously and regained composure. "Yes, this is for my friends. Their happiness is more important."

She waited patiently as her two best friends finished packing their homework's in their backpacks. She began to wave happily as the two came into view. Just seeing them together from that distance made her see how far away they were form her. How perfect they looked for one another. Kori dropped her hand to her side. Be strong and be happy for them, her mind barked. Kori brought her fake smile on her lips.

When the couple had finally met up with Kori, they exchanged quick smiles.

"So what was it you wanted to tell me?" Richard asked.

"Oh uh," Barbara replied flustered. Her eyes glanced at the ground to his and then to Kori's. She offered her an encouraging smile.

Richard remained clueless. He met Kori's eyes for a brief moment as if asking her what was going on. But Kori continued to smile despite feeling her cheeks burn a tinted pink color.

"I was wondering if you had feelings for either of us," Barbara blurted.

Either of us? Kori did not expect her to ask him that. A part of her felt overjoyed for her thoughtful question. She felt hopeful that maybe she did have a chance.

Richard stared at them, stunned. His face turned a slight pink shade.

"I mean if you ever thought of us more than just a friend," Barbara clarified. "Dick, I still have feelings for you. I've always liked you more than just a friend the moment I had met you. Please tell me you feel the same!" Barbara blurted.

Kori felt her body stiffen. She couldn't move. It was as if this suspenseful atmosphere had left her paralyzed. Her erratic heart pounded deafeningly as they all waited to hear his answer. Say yes, Dick! A part of her mind screamed. Her face started to hurt from smiling. Then in a weaker tone, she thought, give her a chance…

Richard glanced at Kori's smiling face. The he focused on Barbara. No… please… the same weak voice whimpered.

"Sure, Babs," he smiled. "Let's give us a shot."

"Congratulations, guys! I'm so happy for you!" Kori heard her voice respond automatically.

"It's all thanks to you, Kori! Thanks for your support," Barbara said.

"Anytime…"

"Well, Dick and I better have a moment here, so I'll see you later okay?" Barbara said as she dragged Richard's hand. They were gone before Kori could respond.

"I'm happy for them," she whispered to herself as she walked to her locker. "I'm a real true friend." Moisture clouded her vision. "I support them one hundred percent!" the tears spilled over her face. "I want them to be happy… It's for the best."

Then she broke down by her lockers, hugging her legs to her chest. It was the most she had ever cried in her entire life.

~End Flashback~


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Kori suffered for three years with this internal conflict. She couldn't talk to anyone about how she truly felt. She didn't want her friends to worry about her. Besides she was a strong girl, right? Right. No way would she ever crumble.

Until she met Rachel Roth.

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~Flashback~

"You can't fool anyone with that fake smile of yours," the Goth commented as she read her book. She had pale skin, short raven black hair, and purple eyes.

"Why would it matter to you?" Kori asked, but it came out as a stiff response.

"Don't flatter yourself. I didn't comment because I cared. I said it because your so called fake smiles aren't working anymore," the girl replied.

"Thanks for the save," Kori turned around and exited the library. She left the girl to her books.

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High school was terrible, especially as a sophomore. Her life was miserable. She had no loyal friends who wouldn't tell her so called best friends anything.

Kori grew depressed everyday of her life since that heart breaking memory. They were still together up to now aside from the occasional break ups. Despite that, they always ended up getting back together.

Jealousy, rage, regrets filled her soul. She hated her two friends to an extent. But she would always end up taking back her words. Most of all she hated herself for letting him go. Why didn't I see it like Victor and all the other kids did back in sixth grade? Why didn't I notice the way he had treated me? In the end, Kori had become distant. She still had her fake, warm smile on when she was around her friends. There was no need to start a drama and result with losing everyone. Loneliness was the last thing she needed to go through right now.

Today, she had been tired. She was at her limit. And she had to get away fast. So, Kori had decided to head out to the library, hoping to distract herself with stories. The first book she touched was a romance novel based on what she was going through. Like the main heroine, she had fallen deeply in love with her best friend. The only difference was that they had ended up together. Kori envied the girl in the story. She envied her happiness. She yearned for her best friend to love her back.

Kori didn't notice her tears until someone sat in front of her. It was the same Goth chick she had spoken to weeks ago. She only lifted her eye brow and everything spilled out of Kori's lips: her pain and suffering, her fake masks, her loneliness, her emptiness, and her regrets.

She needed to let them out. She couldn't bear being alone with so much burden on her shoulders. So here she was spilling everything to a total stranger without care if she had thought of her as a pathetic girl.

Kori was surprised to see the Goth girl have empathy in her eyes rather than pity. She was even more surprised that she tried to cheer her up.

"You have been through a lot," the Goth replied. "It's unbelievable that you could hold everything in the past three, four years. You're a very strong girl."

These were the words Kori had wanted to hear. She had been searching for someone to help encourage her to keep moving forward and continue being strong. She needed someone to acknowledge her pain and praise her for her actions when she, herself had given up. Her strength wavered over the past years, but now she was able to bear it.

"I'm sorry for spilling everything to you. Especially after the way I had talked to you the last time we had encountered," Kori sniffed.

"Don't worry about it," the dark girl replied. "At least you got it out, right? Do you feel a bit better now?"

"Yes, very much," Kori wiped a tear away. "I'm sorry, but what is your name?"

"Rachel. Rachel Roth," she introduced.

"Kori Anders."

~End Flashback~


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Kori and Rachel had been great friends since that day. She's got a sharp, sarcastic tongue, but she has her moments. Kori grew distant from her two friends and their group and as a result, she had broken away from them. That was how she had become independent.

On a positive note, she gained two familiar faces: Victor Stone and Garfield Logan. She had been quite happy ever since. She felt free and happy once more.

Strangely, her departure wasn't regrettable. Something had told her that Barbara had wanted her to leave from the start of high school. It was obvious in the way she had looked and acted around her.

Their invincible bond had shattered.

Of all the times Kori had sacrificed her happiness for her, she couldn't help but feel pathetic. Her thoughtfulness was in vain. Her very best friend had become a backstabber, telling the group of things about the bad Kori.

The reason for it? It was during one of her break ups with Richard.

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~Flashback~

"She dumped you for the third time again? Dick how much can you stand for this?" Kori asked him over phone.

"I don't know, Kori. It's just that our fights are growing constant. I'm sick of it but…"

"You're always taking her back," Kori finished.

"Yeah…"

"Hmm… how come you can't say no? Find another girl who can make you happier!" Kori advised.

"I did… but I lost her," Richard replied quietly, but Kori heard it perfectly.

"Who?" she asked.

"Uh… it's nothing. Forget I said anything, Kori," he replied flustered.

"Uh-uh. I'm not letting that go, Dick. If you wanted someone else a while now, then tell her before she leaves your life for good!"

"Kori, I can't just tell her. I'm scared she doesn't feel the same for me. Besides I can't leave Babs hanging after our break up. You know I hate seeing her sad."

"But she's the one who broke up with you, Dick! Find someone else. You'll find real happiness with someone other than her," Kori retorted.

"I thought you always supported her, Kori. What happened?" Richard asked.

That caught Kori off guard. She rolled off her bed and fell on her rugged floor. "Ow," she muttered.

"You fell off your bed again?"

"No one asked you, stalker!" Kori hissed.

"You don't need to take out your anger on me, Kori. Sheesh," Richard retorted defensively.

"Sorry…" she apologized.

"Well what?"

"What made you change support?" Dick asked.

"I'm not answering that until you tell me your Miss Perfect," Kori snorted.

"Stubborn girl," he sighed.

"You're one to talk."

"Lady's first."

"And there's my proof," Kori huffed as she climbed back on her bed.

"Kori…" he whined.

"Fine, okay! It's because you don't look happy with her, Dick. I can see it on your face. It's like you don't really wanna be with her, yet you still try. Sometimes I don't understand the way you think, Dick."

"Is that your real answer?"

"Don't deny it, Dick. I know you better than that," Kori responded.

"Bullseye as always," Dick answered.

Kori felt her lips twitch into a grin, "You haven't changed a bit"

"I'm surprised you haven't either," Richard whispered.

"How so?"

"We don't hang out anymore, let alone in the group. You're always somewhere else and I can't find you anywhere. I'm surprised that you haven't changed a bit," Richard sighed in relief.

"Okay now spill yours. Who's the chick who made you happy? Do I know her?"

"Yeah, you know her."

"Have I met her?" Kori asked worriedly. Her stomach filled with dread. She didn't want to go through this again, but she needed to support her best friend.

"Every day," Richard replied after a few seconds.

"What's her name?" Kori asked heartbreakingly. She wanted to know who the mystery girl was, at the same time she didn't want to know. She didn't want to feel sad while talking to Richard after not speaking with him in a very long time. Especially, not after she had found her happiness again with Rachel, Garfield, and Victor.

Dick muffled a word underneath his breath.

"I can't hear you, Dick."

"You," he whispered audibly. It was if he was scared to say her name.

"I think I heard you wrong," Kori replied blankly. Perhaps it's my imagination?

"You're right," he replied.

I knew it. Kori felt her heart sink. She knew it was too good to be true. She was hoping too much, that it was playing with her ears.

"You as in: my best friend, Kori Anders. Kori I've been in love with you."

Kori felt her heart stop. For a moment, she couldn't find the words to reply to him. It felt like a dream come true after wishing on stupid chain messages, 11:11, and stars. Her best friend was in love, no is in love with her!

"Kori?" he sighed. "Forget I said anything."

No! I need to talk now! Talk girl! This is your chance! "M-me too," she stuttered. "I'm in love with my best friend too."

There was no response on the other line. Kori began to feel restless with the ongoing silence. She had assumed that Richard had forgotten to charge his phone again, therefore his phone died. But the screen of her phone told her that his phone was still alive.

"Uh, Dick? Hello?" Kori asked.

"Kori look outside your window." Then the line went dead.

Kori peeked through her window and saw Richard basking under the moonlight night. He was leaning over his red motorcycle, staring at Kori. At that moment, Kori felt her face flush a million shades of red. She pulled herself away from the window and to her mirror.

I must be dreaming! she thought. She pinched herself and automatically felt pain. Nope! This is real!

"Hurry up slow poke!" Richard called out.

"You're too loud!" Kori hissed through her window.

"Then hurry up!" he replied in an audible whisper.

In a heartbeat, Kori was at the front door in her oversized school club t-shirt and short shorts.

"What are you doing here?" Kori hissed.

"Taking your advice, he responded. "Telling the girl how I feel."

"And over phone wasn't enough?"

"No, because I wouldn't see this," Richard pulled Kori into a tight hug, followed by using his fingers to outline her facial features. Kori felt a tingling sensation overwhelm her. Her breath grew taut. After what felt like hours, Richard stopped to cup her face in his hands. She felt her face grow hotter as his eyes bore into hers intensely.

"No, don't do that!" Kori groaned.

"Why? You don't like it?" Richard teased. "But your face is saying something else."

Kori slapped his arm. "Dick! You know I get embarrassed easily!"

"That's what makes you really cute, Kori," Richard smirked.

Kori turned her back on him as she placed her hands over her burning cheeks. Then she felt him wrap his arms around her waist from behind and pull her to his body. His head rested on her shoulder, gently rubbing against the exposed skin of her neck.

"H-how will I know if this is all real?" Kori asked.

"Believe me when I tell you that you're the only person I will ever treat this way," Richard whispered hypnotically. "All those times, those past three, four years, my heart belonged to only you, Kori."

"But why did you say yes to Barbara?" she asked.

"I thought you didn't like me back then. You were supporting her, so I assumed you didn't feel like me at all."

"But now?"

"I'm the happiest guy on earth. I have the most beautiful girl in my arms. The best part is: she feels the same way!"

"You stole my words," Kori pouted.

"We do have similar minds," he winked. "Honestly I feel like I'm dreaming."

"Well I'll help you remember this then." Kori turned her head to press her lips on his right cheek. His skin felt so soft against her lips, despite having strong cheek bones.

Flustered by the reaction, the sixteen year old touched the place where Kori's lips had contact. He inched closer to her, as if drawn to press his lips against hers. Kori felt her heart race. This was the moment she had been hoping for. She felt his breath tickle her cheek, he was so close. But before their lips could meet, his bike's alarm went off.

"So much for the perfect moment," Richard sighed.

Kori laughed. She was the happiest girl in the world at the moment. Her wish had come true. It felt perfect. Even the interruption did not foil her overjoyed mood.

~End Flashback~


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Kori felt her lips form into a smile. This was the happiest moment of her life. Kori and Richard had been dating in secrecy, since she couldn't handle the public display of affections just yet. Unfortunately they had not kissed throughout their time together. But they did exchange love notes, selected their love songs, and held hands. It was a very innocent relationship.

Unfortunately, reality never failed to make her wake up and realize that happy endings had painful endings too.

What seemed to last forever suddenly came to an end. It was a conversation between Richard and Barbara. Something that Kori shouldn't have seen, less than overheard.

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~Flash back~

While everyone enjoyed their lunch break, Kori ran towards the empty school hallways with tears threatening to fall down her lovely complexion. It was not long before she heard him run after her.

"Kori," he said.

The red headed girl didn't dare to turn around. She didn't want him to see her cry. He was the last person she wanted to show how weak and miserable she looked.

She felt him touch her arm and she pulled away, stepping several inches away from him.

"Kori, if you just listen…"

"I don't want to here your bullshit, Dick," she stated in an even tone.

He spun her around just in time to see her tears spill down her puffy, red eyes.

"Was I some sort of game to you, Dick? Was that it? Someone to kill time until Babs took you back, huh?!" Kori screamed.

"Kori, I--"

"Bullshit," she screamed. "Those promises you told me that night we got together were lies weren't they? You used me!"

"I didn't!" he screamed back.

"Liar!" she roared. She inhaled a sharp breath and looked at him straight in the eye. "Tell me, Richard, look me in the eye and tell me you don't feel like an ass hole for what you just did."

"Damnit, Kori! You know I love you, why can't you just take that as your answer? Why don't you trust me?" he cried out.

"You were all over her! You told her I was nothing to you!" More tears spilled out of the girl's eyes.  "You told me that you couldn't stand to see me cry! You couldn't stand to see people in pain!" Kori felt her legs wobble unsteadily," But look at me now. How do you think I felt those past three, four years?" Kori's voice began to crack midsentence. She swallowed another lungful of air. "Richard I loved you with everything I had. You mean so much to me. I still love you right now, even if I'm in pain. Do you know why?"

He did not respond. He only stared at her with pain in his eyes.

"Because of your happiness. I wanted to make you happy, that's all I ever wanted. I can't stand you being happy with someone else, even when it was Babs! But if that's the only way to see you smile, then I allowed her to whisk you away! I love you so much, that I would give you up just because I wanted you happy." Kori wiped her overflowing tears with her sleeve.

"Kori…" Richard whispered as he took a step towards her. Before he could take another step, Kori spoke up.

"Don't bother, Richard. Go back to Babs. I see that you still have feelings for her after all. I'm glad you had your fun with me. I hope you have a great future with her," Kori gave him one last tearful smile before turning around. "Don't worry about me. I can take care of myself."

Kori ran with no destination in thought. She just had to get away from him. Secretly, she hoped that Richard would wake up and finally know what he had before him, and run after her. This time, her wish did not come true.

~End Flashback~


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That was the last time Kori had spoken to Richard Grayson. That was a decade ago. She has never seen or heard from him since. Throughout high school, she had avoided running into him. She continued to do so until graduation.

Kori stared at her soaked pillow. Although she had vowed never to go back to him, she couldn't help but wish that they could start over. She missed her best friend and first love.

He was always on her mind when she had trouble or someone to talk to. Victor and Garfield were both great guy friends, but they didn't have the bond she yearned for.

Despite carrying such painful memories, she couldn't help but still love him. She couldn't bear holding a grudge on her true love.

She did try out dating lately, but so far no such luck. Every guy she came across had only wanted one thing: to get in her panties. She had given up all together, but her friends wouldn't allow Kori to stay lonely and loveless forever. Thus, they decided to play matchmaker.

She had another date tonight. A great one, they had promised. But she couldn't take it anymore. After this one, she would give up and adopt cats. At least they were better companions and great cuddlers.

More than once, Kori had wondered if she'll ever speak to her love once more before she died—if ever that will happen.

She missed him, and it couldn't be helped. After all, first loves never die. They will always be loved, and have a special place in a person's heart.

Giving up on sleep, Kori changed into her sweats. Outside, she heard a roaring engine die down. Her dried eyes began to water once more while her heart pounded unevenly.

It couldn't be…
Sorry for taking a long time to write something, but here's a story that InuYasha had inspired me to write. :forgiveme:
Also by this song: Boys Like Girls- Be Your Everything [link]

As you guessed this is my first AU story of the lovebirds. And also yet another long one-shot!

Now I know the story's pretty cliche, but the goal here is to make the story sound pretty realistic. Of course, the situation is possible to relate to. Trust me, it's possible.

But yeah, here's my latest story! I hope you guys loved it :')

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(c) Tears of Past by me
(c) Teen Titans belongs to DC Comics
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OH MY GOD, one of the most fricking greatest stories I have ever read... So at the end Richard is the date for Kori right?... I hoped so.